Thanks!!!! Hearing people really loving your music and appreciating what you do is what it's all about. Cisco and I work hard on our music. I love that about my husband. He goes into the studio like a man on a mission and he will stay there all night and will work on it for days until he gets it the way he wants it, then I get it and do the same thing. The words have to be right, the story has to have the right meaning.
I really can't explain it because suffering from depression the way I have most of my life, I have to say I really believe in a Force, Divine Will, God, Shiva? I don't know, but when I look at my youth, I see how not ready I was. In my 20s I still looked like a kid, a face full of acne and braces on my teeth. Even though I got work, nobody could ever see me as a front runner then. I've been kicked down a lot, and even though I would wallow for a spell from some of my setbacks, I would still get back up. Now I feel full of fire, like I can get back up faster than I could before.
I remember a story told by William Blake, I think, where a man is taunted by Lucifer. The man goes at him and fights him with all his might, but he's smoted. The man gets back up in a new body, his weaknesses in the old body are now his strengths in his new one. This goes on and on until the man stands before Lucifer in a body bright and shining as his, and Lucifer embraces him and takes him up to Heaven. It was an interesting spin on Jacob wrestling with God, I thought.
I've always seen this as not just evil, but "unbelievable odds." In my younger years I was crushed by the idea and there wasn't much fire behind my words, but now I find myself challenged by them, like a warrior. I don't think it's all me alone, I definitely have forces working through me.
We must have goals to make the game of life interesting.
Chaeya
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