philbymon wrote:
Do you have more stuff like this?
Sorry to hear about the band prob's. Hope you get it sorted out.
Yea.. I we have more. But we were still in the writing process. We hadn't recorded yet. I wish you guys could hear "Wolves". It's my personal favorite One Day Broken song. f**k man, if you guys like Burn, you would love Wolves.
All I have recorded at the house right now are samples or my recordings of initial ideas..
I have a song that I recorded that is the initial idea for a song called Enabler.
But before you listen to it, I would like to set it up first.
First of all, I mentioned to Craig that I like to explore different versions of songs. With Enabler, the first thing I wanted to do was capture the sadness of the verses. It needed a real honest mood. Because the story is about one of the saddest periods of my life.
My ex was a huge pill addict. There was a period of time when I was watching her basically slowly kill herself with them. She would take sometimes over 20 a day. Mostly Loritab and Soma, but sometimes Percs, and Oxy.
We were engaged, and I loved her more than anything in the world. But no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't do anything about her addiction. I tried so hard to help her. But she was so addicted that if she stopped "Cold Turkey" it would kill her. I found myself in a spot to where if I gave her the pills she wanted, I was killing her, and if I didn't give her the pills, it would kill her.
We tried weening her off of them, but she would always fall back into taking heavy doses behind my back. She would just try to hide it from me then.
There were many times I thought I would come home from work and she'd just be dead.
One day we were fighting over it. I didn't know what to do. I was watching her slowly die everyday. She would just sleep on the couch, or sleep in the bed for most of the day, almost everyday. When she would run out she would get violently sick with withdrawals. The lights always had to be dim, or dark, and it would be 60 degrees in the apartment. She rarely wanted to go outside during the daytime. I couldn't take it anymore.
But she turned and looked me dead in the eyes and said, "you know what you are?? You're an enabler."
I was never so hurt by anything in my whole life. I couldn't believe she said it.
That was one of the most insulting things anyone ever said to me. Especially in a situation like this.
She was already addicted when I met her, she just hid it from me for the first couple of months. I wasn't the cause of her problem. I only wanted nothing more than to get her back off of them so that we could live a happy married life.
I put up my home demo of the clean version of this song on my profile. The One Day Broken version is actually heavy and hard hitting, but has spots of this mood.
**(I apologize for the drum machine, but when I do these home versions, it's only used as a click. It's just me and my Les Paul plugged directly into the recorder. These are only meant to record the idea and give it to the band to start working on the song.)
Anyway.. It's probably not going to impress you as much as Burn does. But on my personal scale, I still love this version. Sometimes more than the One Day Broken Version.
I'll dig up the thread. Man this song kills me!!
