Guitaranatomy, thanks for your concern man, i appreciate that. Theres more to my spine and its level of injury than what i posted; i just keep it simple for most people to understand.
You hit on a point that for me is built in to my nature, i feel like a worthless POS when other people are lifting heavy things, back and forth up and down stairs, moving furniture, equipment, etc...and i have to just watch..."that's 'not me'" but i have learned (the hard way) when to and when not to, pitch in.
Being an invisable injury; most people think you're faking and just a lazy SOB that wants to get out of work...it's none too flattering to be looked at or thought of like that.
So i walk a fine line between risking farther injury vs. being looked at as someone who's a worthless mofo.
It's just a matter of time before the "big one" hits and i'll have no options but surgery (if that will even be an option then)...and i realize that...so it's "on me" so to speak.
My whole spine including the Cervical area is wasted but i "keep that to myself" only my Family knows the full extent of whats going on and progressing. Like i said "Thanks"...it's hard to find someone that understands...when people say "my back hurts" or "my feet ache"...man they don't know the half of it...i just smile. to keep from cryin'
You hit on a point that for me is built in to my nature, i feel like a worthless POS when other people are lifting heavy things, back and forth up and down stairs, moving furniture, equipment, etc...and i have to just watch..."that's 'not me'" but i have learned (the hard way) when to and when not to, pitch in.
Being an invisable injury; most people think you're faking and just a lazy SOB that wants to get out of work...it's none too flattering to be looked at or thought of like that.
So i walk a fine line between risking farther injury vs. being looked at as someone who's a worthless mofo.
It's just a matter of time before the "big one" hits and i'll have no options but surgery (if that will even be an option then)...and i realize that...so it's "on me" so to speak.
My whole spine including the Cervical area is wasted but i "keep that to myself" only my Family knows the full extent of whats going on and progressing. Like i said "Thanks"...it's hard to find someone that understands...when people say "my back hurts" or "my feet ache"...man they don't know the half of it...i just smile. to keep from cryin'
