God is the one I talk to when I'm in my hours of need, love, knowledge, humor, etc. When I was laying on that hard pavement which seemed for hours, I remembered my friend, my father, my brother, my confidant, MY GOD! I asked for his help...I asked if I could be taken over to the next plain....I cursed HIM...I cried for HIM.... I needed HIM... I felt HIM... I need HIM. Times are gonna get real tough but I'll still confide in HIM!
What a fukkin wimp am I.... sleeves of tats, garage full of bikes.... wailing like a screaming banshee on stage...
But...
He is my light.... I need HIM to show me the way... I am his sheep and he WILL get me through this storm....I BELIEVE...
I don't force my beliefs on anyone and my wife thinks I'm a nut case... she doesn't believe because she blames her sons Cerebral palsy on the fact if there was a God than why does he let this happen. The wife and kids just laugh at me and I can't ask God for any magical miracles to prove anything to them... I thought maybe the fact that I hit a truck head on with a motorcycle and am alive and walking around to talk about it might help....but it doesn't... My family doesn't beleve and I can't do a thing to force them....They actually laugh at me sometimes but I understand their reasoning....One day...one way....one existence ...they will find him.
In the meantime, I pray that he has a spot in the Kingdom of heaven even for a sinner like me. NOTHING.....and I mean NOTHING will make me betray my faith in THE LORD, MY GOD!
I try everyday to endure this pain and keep myself breathing even though I'm waiting impatiently to move on. I will never take mine or another life for any reason whatsoever just because they are suffering and deserve to move on to that beautiful place I call heaven! I WILL do it to anyone of my domesticated animals because I feel they have a right to be put out of their misery and I feel God has given us the right to help those poor helpless souls get on their way to a better place!
Now.....HOWZ THAT FOR THIS CRAZY, HEAVY METAL, TATOOED BIKER?? LOL
Keep praying please, all of you believers as I'm told there is now a chance of my shoulder just giving way and falling apart. Possibly even losing the use of my whole arm! Looks like it may take a litttle longer to shred the sh¡t out of any new tunes.......yet......
