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Okay...I'm prepared for some set-backs.

The ex told me that she's going on vacation for 12 days, so that I won't have to look at her. (YAY!) She leaves on Friday or Sat...I can't remember...

Then...I go to work today, & they hit me with the fact that the co that hired me doesn't have either a biz OR a contractor's license to work in WV. & they just got caught. They''ve been given until Fri to comply...but I dunno if the contractor's test is even available this week (they only give them 4-5 times a year, here!), so it's likely that tomorrow will be my last day of employment.

I was told to "have ppl looking over me" while I'm on this Chantix stuff, in case I go into the deep end & try to drown suicidally...I"m not worried about the meds...life is doing a pretty good job on me right now.

I'm trying REALLY hard to have some sort of positive attitude through all this sh*t...why won't the universe gimme a frikken break for a week or so?

So - today is the 1st day with the full dose. Wish me luck. I think I chose the wrong time to quit smoking...& drinking...& heroin...& orgies...& serial killing...& tax evasion...


I've been told that God doesn't give you anything you can't handle. I think God has seriously over-estimated me...

Don't you?

I've been told that God doesn't give you anything you can't handle. I think God has seriously over-estimated me...

Don't you?

Lol... your sense of humor is still intact and that's a good thing.

All I can say is hold on and you'll come out of it.

Okay...I'm prepared for some set-backs.

The ex told me that she's going on vacation for 12 days, so that I won't have to look at her. (YAY!) She leaves on Friday or Sat...I can't remember...

Then...I go to work today, & they hit me with the fact that the co that hired me doesn't have either a biz OR a contractor's license to work in WV. & they just got caught. They''ve been given until Fri to comply...but I dunno if the contractor's test is even available this week (they only give them 4-5 times a year, here!), so it's likely that tomorrow will be my last day of employment.

I was told to "have ppl looking over me" while I'm on this Chantix stuff, in case I go into the deep end & try to drown suicidally...I"m not worried about the meds...life is doing a pretty good job on me right now.

I'm trying REALLY hard to have some sort of positive attitude through all this sh*t...why won't the universe gimme a frikken break for a week or so?

So - today is the 1st day with the full dose. Wish me luck. I think I chose the wrong time to quit smoking...& drinking...& heroin...& orgies...& serial killing...& tax evasion...


I've been told that God doesn't give you anything you can't handle. I think God has seriously over-estimated me...

Don't you?

Dude, at least you are losing somebody you hate... Try losing somebody you love... Its 10 times worse, I'm pretty sure. Happened to me...during Final Exams Week of my Senior year in college... Know what I discovered?
Its a guarantee that you cannot "STOP" the pain from flowing through you... But You have the divine right and ability to regulate the rate of its flow... Having said that, give yourself permission to , scream, cry, climb the tower with a high powered rifle .. whatever....but ONLY for an HOUR or two a day...and only as long as its NOT destructive to yourself or others. Then redirect your focus... In fact, get a pair of sunshades and put them on while you are "gone " on a tyrade" .. Then Take them off after you are done with your allotted time. You will be amazed at how cool that works... (I aced one of my finals because of my strategy; letting me prioritize my focus at the right times))

The upshot... I got over the bitch and left her far behind. (SHe's probably saddled in some trailer now, with 10 kids)

I used Chantix. No side effects at all and it really helped. too many horror stories out there.

now Welbutrin is another story - that gave me the heebie jeebies.

I'm running out of vices...

Talbot

Zoloft put me in some sort of downward spiral that I barely made it through, Mike...so I'm a lil concerned with other brain drugs.

Write some music about her..

lol


i.e. "You prolly thought this tune was about you" etcetera ..

Zoloft kept me awake and wouldn't let me sleep, plus gave me rolling panic attacks. Nasty stuff for me.

Hang in there, Phil. It does get better.

Chaeya

Maybe he is just waiting for you to stop trying to do it yourself and let HIM handle the details.

I find it amazing how well God steers my life when I remember to let go of the wheel.

I believe there is a good reason for even the bad sh*t that happens in our lives.

One look at my ex girlfriends these days would be enough to convince anyone

Without Him we are lost. I do not believe you have lived to your age without divine intervention. There are warnings from the heavens that are like a pruning of a tree. We can not do it on our own without He the Creator of everything. You can replace the words He/Him/God with the word love. Do not look to Zoloft or others as your life's tire patch. Your nicotine patches may help you because it is understood that they are temporary. Love can heal all that ails you. Love is there through the good times and bad. If you want the power of love, You have to give love. Forgive those that have trod against you. That alone is a stress you don't need to bear any longer. Stop trying to figure it out. There is a path destined for you. If you want to testify on love, try this- it won't take long (a minute or two). Read 1 John 3:13, Then read 1 John 4:9. You will feel Love's presence as soon as you apply it. Love knows it is not good for man to be alone, Love created Eve from Adam's rib. Love will provide your new path.

I'd really hate to offend anyone with a sermon or presenting a way that works for me from a power greater than my own. Sorry to have preached or shown any compassion that might be hope. Try Zoloft, I hear it does wonders for people. Their TV commercials are great, show great promise and never interrupt what brought me to watching it anyways.

Just quit smoking you don't need all those drugs
Drugs are bad while life without cigs is good

I'm running out of vices...

Talbot

When I first read this I thought it said "I'm running out of voices".

PaperDog, when you said, "Dude, at least you are losing somebody you hate..." you overstated my emotions quite a bit. I'm angry at her. I hate what she's DONE, but I don't hate her. Dunno that I ever really could.

PaperDog, when you said, "Dude, at least you are losing somebody you hate..." you overstated my emotions quite a bit. I'm angry at her. I hate what she's DONE, but I don't hate her. Dunno that I ever really could.

And this is the good news.

You can live much better without the hate just as you can live better without the cigarettes and the the doctors damn chemicals.


Jeanette and I spent a year apart due to my infidelity ( and other issues )
and almost lost one another. But even through the hurt and anger we never lost love.
True love cannot be "lost" though lust and infatuation fade with time.
True love is as eternal as our soul, and our creator himself.