As I sit here in the dark, watching "David Gilmour Live At Gdansk," it hit me like a sledgehammer.
All my life I've wanted this, & I really want to set it up for myself before I kick the bucket.
Whenever I see a musician play with a mass of bowed strings, it always seems to me that that must be the coolest thing in the whole wide world to do, to play with traditionally symphonic instruments, all working together on one's own music.
Much of my music would lend itself to that format...& a whole lot of that which is in my head has always been, like, a BIG production.
I have much writing to do, before I could do an entire concert of it, but it's in this headbone, & I need to let it out, set it up, & perform it, if only one time.
Is that odd? Is it too lofty a goal? Would it come across that I'm just too ful of myself? Am I over-reaching things? Would anyone even like it?
Ya know what? I don't really care. It's what I want to do, & I am so f*cking sick & tired of trying to get a band going, & I'm beginning to feel that old inspiration again.
The odd gig I just did, the stuff I'm hearing tonight, the incredible boredom & general malaise I've been going through for what seems like YEARS, is all adding up to give me that much-needed kick in the ass, & I'm starting to feel really ALIVE again, for the first time in a long time.
I was just plooking around on my acoustic, & I'm getting in touch with my muse again...& it feels like coming home after a long long long trip that sucked in a very big way.
I need to be the real me, again...writing...pushing & wrestling with my hands & my mind & my heart & my soul at all hours of the day & night until I find that elusive IT...
How to do it? I have no freaking idea. Who to talk to? Who the hell knows. Hell, even if I have to cheat with sampled keys to get the ideas across, at least that's SOMETHING!
I'm outta here...gotta organize this rush of sound running through my inner ear...wish me luck! There's way too much to describe.
All my life I've wanted this, & I really want to set it up for myself before I kick the bucket.
Whenever I see a musician play with a mass of bowed strings, it always seems to me that that must be the coolest thing in the whole wide world to do, to play with traditionally symphonic instruments, all working together on one's own music.
Much of my music would lend itself to that format...& a whole lot of that which is in my head has always been, like, a BIG production.
I have much writing to do, before I could do an entire concert of it, but it's in this headbone, & I need to let it out, set it up, & perform it, if only one time.
Is that odd? Is it too lofty a goal? Would it come across that I'm just too ful of myself? Am I over-reaching things? Would anyone even like it?
Ya know what? I don't really care. It's what I want to do, & I am so f*cking sick & tired of trying to get a band going, & I'm beginning to feel that old inspiration again.
The odd gig I just did, the stuff I'm hearing tonight, the incredible boredom & general malaise I've been going through for what seems like YEARS, is all adding up to give me that much-needed kick in the ass, & I'm starting to feel really ALIVE again, for the first time in a long time.
I was just plooking around on my acoustic, & I'm getting in touch with my muse again...& it feels like coming home after a long long long trip that sucked in a very big way.
I need to be the real me, again...writing...pushing & wrestling with my hands & my mind & my heart & my soul at all hours of the day & night until I find that elusive IT...
How to do it? I have no freaking idea. Who to talk to? Who the hell knows. Hell, even if I have to cheat with sampled keys to get the ideas across, at least that's SOMETHING!
I'm outta here...gotta organize this rush of sound running through my inner ear...wish me luck! There's way too much to describe.
SMILE - it's the safest way to spread your cheeks!







