When I was much younger, I always thought that when I got older things were
gonna be different, better, easier. Decades have slipped by and things aren't.
If anything they're harder. You know the old sayin "If I Knew Then What I Know Now"
WOW everything would be different. I guess I'm feelin my age tonight.
I know what I know right now and it doesn't help me.
I want to retire soon but the economy and health care costs scare the sh*t out of me.
My wife is not well and I must protect her future. I may end up working longer.
When I do get time for myself I am all about excess. I drink too much. I fish almost
too much
. I stay up too late and drive too fast. My body aches from years
of tree climbing years ago. Never satisfied musically anymore.
You know what?
Music can be a curse. If you can play the sh*t out of an instrument then you have
it in your blood. You cant get a transfusion for that. If you are part of the 1%
that actually have a musical career and make a living with it that's the bomb.
If not you find yourself squeezing it into your life and never really getting your
arms around it like you want to. For many if you graphed out their musical
satisfaction over a life time it would look like a mountain range up-down-up-down.
Over all I guess I'd rather make music than not but there are probably a lot of
things I don't do that I would find fanfuckingtastic.
I want to learn how to weld aluminum. Isn't that weird.
I don't have time to cut my hair but I want to learn how to weld aluminum.
I know, thanks for listening to me vent. I'm sure many would Love to have my
problems instead of their own.[/b]
gonna be different, better, easier. Decades have slipped by and things aren't.
If anything they're harder. You know the old sayin "If I Knew Then What I Know Now"
WOW everything would be different. I guess I'm feelin my age tonight.
I know what I know right now and it doesn't help me.
I want to retire soon but the economy and health care costs scare the sh*t out of me.
My wife is not well and I must protect her future. I may end up working longer.
When I do get time for myself I am all about excess. I drink too much. I fish almost
too much

of tree climbing years ago. Never satisfied musically anymore.
You know what?
Music can be a curse. If you can play the sh*t out of an instrument then you have
it in your blood. You cant get a transfusion for that. If you are part of the 1%
that actually have a musical career and make a living with it that's the bomb.
If not you find yourself squeezing it into your life and never really getting your
arms around it like you want to. For many if you graphed out their musical
satisfaction over a life time it would look like a mountain range up-down-up-down.
Over all I guess I'd rather make music than not but there are probably a lot of
things I don't do that I would find fanfuckingtastic.
I want to learn how to weld aluminum. Isn't that weird.
I don't have time to cut my hair but I want to learn how to weld aluminum.
I know, thanks for listening to me vent. I'm sure many would Love to have my
problems instead of their own.[/b]