kill me now...

"Destroy me before I lose what little sanity I have left.."
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Chief Engineer Scott wrote:You know, I am coming to realize that I am a "type AAAAAA" personality when it comes to this music and I am not sure how much I am going to be able to complete when all is said and done.
And I hate people, they just all let me down because I expect to get what I give, which is all. I don't leave anything out and I hang it in the wind, which is maybe more than I should do because I slip and fall as much or more than anyone else and sheer force of will is not enough to "float the boat".
Fact is that I am too tightly wound and little things skip rope with my last nerve.
Yea it's regrettable that the fellow from the label left before I could "pitch" him, but who knows maybe it's for the best. I am not doing things like "Bridgette Fountainhead" so I don't even know if that would have been applicable since he's coming from Lance and crew's recommendation(s).
I like the current setup because I can play with a competent if not inspired pianist and that's new for me.
Sven is something short of non-existent, but we'll see how he plays out in the end. (I am unsure if he can read English, let alone music but "let the games begin". He looks like a "scapegoat" to me and maybe that's ok as well.)
If there was ever a contest for the most insane individual on Bmix, I'd probably win hands down. I think maybe some of that is stress and frustration inspired, but that's no excuse.
I am just not a people person and if I could mix and master well enough, I'd retire to a life of seclusion and long hours to attempt to create a magnum opus and/or portfolio of materials.
Then I might actually entertain trying to work with people.
(My name's "Lrrr", ruler of the planet Omicron Persei 8, damn but those Humans are an ugly and ill-tempered species. I wonder how they taste!)
As it is now, I am something just short of a rabid animal trying desperately to cook up a body of material that seems to be coming from an unknown dimension with unknown results.
And with that, I just got message that our latest creation has taken a breath and is on our regular "soundclick" site.
I am wrung out like a dirty dish towel left outside for too long in the desert sun..I feel like I was stung by a scorpion and delirious from the poison coursing through my system.
"Say a prayer" because I now know what that Nurse felt like that took the prank call from those 2 Aussie DJ's that called the hospital.
It's like being fed into the chipper feet first because "they" want to see the look on your face as you go in, just don't turn it off until it's done.
If you want to hear it, that's fine by me.
I'll create a "critique thread" but I don't think I am going to load it on the bmix player unless someone really needs me to.
"Speak up if that's the case".
Otherwise, my hands are tied to the mast and I am ready for my lashings.
They are long overdue, so whip away because I don't mind the pain, it lets me know I am still "this side of the dirt". (The technical remarks are the part I value the most.)
(And you know damn well I'd be doing it to you if that's what I truly feel/felt.)
"Come and Gone" is the tune. And it's a departure from what has come down the rose pedal paths so far...get ready for something a bit different.
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