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Have this low burning rage that's been visiting me quite often.
If I knew what being a dog with rabies felt like, I'd say that was it.
Started meds for anxiety disorder/paranoia about a year ago.
Fixed the anxiety, but if the meds get out of balance, I'm a mean co**sucker.
Even when I'm balanced, I still get this 'brain is on fire' rage here and there.

Maybe I've had syphilis for a hundred years and I'm just devolving into rabid insanity...

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Man, when ya get like that, ya just gotta keep busy! Quit thinking & DO.

Mind-numbing tasks that take up all your efforts are the best. Stop the internal dialogue until you can deal.

Paint a room. Dig a huge frikken hole. Take yourself out of the picture by DOING, & you'll eventually come around to sanity again.

That's the only thing that works without stupidity drugs, imho.

Simple truth?
Nothing. Create something. We're all really jesters, after all.
Hope you find your peace, but again creating, is a great experience. Don't take any notice of critics. You'll do your best work at that time.
Be well.

I see you're in Idaho...
way to far from the big blue/green sea me lad.
you need to look at the ocean a bit.

always clears out the cobwebs & sets one to rights.

meds are a good tool too, if needs be: until things change chemically on their own .


as always, mho

You just described me to a T before I found out my thyroid had quit on me.
I suggest a thyroid panel.
Other wise you may just be human, and just fed up with all the bullshit.

sanshouheil wrote:You just described me to a T before I found out my thyroid had quit on me.
I suggest a thyroid panel.
Other wise you may just be human, and just fed up with all the bullshit.

Thanks George, I'll do that. (Even though I don't like to go to a doc much)

Thanks for the other thoughts everyone.

Are you in any type of therapy? It helps with the rage. and I've heard it said that unrequited rage turns into depression.

Good luck though, I've been there too....

Fish...it's hard to get mad at a fish, either they strike your offering or not. Concentrate on what your bait/lure is doing and envision a fish grabbing it. Don't think of anything else, just the fish that is eyeing your offering. If you like to eat fish, think of yourself cleaning, fileting the fish, it sizzling in your frying pan, your satisfaction of eating what you catch. While fishing take a close look at the water. What color is the water? How far down can you see objects? Put your hand in the water, how cold is it? Learn how the fish reacts in those exact conditions. Is it windy? What direction is the wind coming from? Is it cloudy, sunny? Did a cold front just come through? What phase is the moon in? Learn how fish react to all those and more external factors. Pretty soon that rage could be a thing of the past. Knowing you're a big part of something natural has a soothing effect on the mind. Human beings have spent most of their existence as part of nature. It's only in the last few thousand that "civilization" has separated us from nature, created an artificial existence. Fishing will bring you back to a more natural state, even a more natural state of mind. Try it..it might work wonders, does for me...

Exactly, bob! Total immersion in a task, no matter the task, is what keeps us sane during stressful times. The Buddhist monks know this. The great thinkers throughout history have known it. In our fast-paced, ADGD-inducing lifestyle, we've forgotten how to simply BE, & it enrages us.

I truly believe that western civilization as we know it will either dissolve, or bring about the destruction of the human mind, cuz we haven't had time enough to adapt to all this continual stimulae, & it would require a HUGE amount of evolution to do so.

Ain't no wonder there are so many crazies out there!