There was a time in my life when I began to ponder and think about the present. Not just my role in it but actually upon a much deeper level. I was not really "inspired" only wondering what the meaning of my life might possibly be ... and what I did not want my life to be.
It was not on a Spiritual level but a personal one which as thought progressed became more and more Spiritual. I was young then ...10 to 11 years old. I had "recovered" from polio and was appreciating life on a level which was newfound, deep and intense. I was pleased to be alive, to be able to walk and breathe on my own, to be able to even start running, riding a horse and play outside with Indians.
I felt I had been spared for some unknown reason. Spared by something beyond the physical but not God. I felt quite unworthy then and could in no way believe that my insignificant life would be graced with such good fortune. Also why ? I was not that special and had not really done anything which would catch the attention of God if he did indeed exist ... which at that time I was leaning on the nonbeliever side.
It was one of those times which I am certain anyone can understand. When the more you thought, then the more questions came to mind and questions which seemed unanswerable. It was at that moment I became troubled. As I have lived the list of questions grew. Some were answered but most were not. I have learned with the passage of time to "live" with this. Most probably everyone does to some extent or another.
As I have lived, I have always remembered the "Beginning" and grew to see and understand the "End". As this has coursed I grew aware of certain knowledges which have just "come to me" from time to time. The mind has a way of filing this information and making sense of it. This understanding is constantly confirmed as I travel my Path. This shows me I am on the Right Path.
At times I have strayed from this invisible Path. But even at worst never completely left it. There was always a woman involved. Not to blame, not to assist and always in various ways an impasse. I always felt this to be my fault however and not theirs. They are what they are and this must be accepted as they can never be anything else contrary to their nature.
These forays have taught me to be patient but also to realize that there are times when being patient is wrong ... nearly fatal. So I follow my own Path and no other. The independence of this is both rewarding and at times terribly solitary. I love women and will always ... if I would confess my greatest weakness then I would without hesitation state women.
This factor has actually assisted in my understanding of the Bible and other writings, books and literature. I am motivated by women, not money, not fame, not purpose. This has been my struggle and I feel i have overcome it. Not because of personal strength or determination or even age, but because they are what they are and I carry many scars of every known type because of this. I could fill reams with my thoughts and experiences on this single subject. But i have no desire to waste what little time I may or may not have.
I was drawn to much of what the Indians of Nebraska and Wyoming believed and as such began to investigate other indigenous tribes as well. This extended to the Aborigines of OZ and LapLanders. There is a continuity that exists in all such lore, prophecy and belief. But I am no Indian nor prophet. I searched for quite sometime until I discovered Bushido which I immediately embraced and have since tried to live my life by.
I relate this all to explain why I left what was once the USA. Of course you may challenge, condemn and mock me for it but that is your choice. I share this to possibly be able to reach you more effectively than I might otherwise. Why you may ask ... because it is something I know I must do. Nothing more and nothing less. In Truth I can not with no guilt comdemn any of you for what you may or may not believe. In the final analysis I must accept it to be true to myself ala Socrates.
It is not really a question of what is right or wrong but simply the acceptance of what " is". The ability to be diverse and free in this kind of belief is like us, a dinosaur and in utter danger of becoming extinct. Some may say this is good. I firmly believe it is bad. Freedom is the basis of creativity. Any Artist knows and appreciates this. The process of creation is sacred to me. There are many kinds of creation.
The short history of The United States is chequered from conception and becomes darker and darker until today it has left it's original Path ... it's intended Path by the Founding Fathers. It's government has been taken from within by "domesticated" domestic enemies. The USA Inc. is an Evil Entity, anti-Human, anti-Christian and morally corrupt. Lost.
It murders the unborn, invades and destroys other countries, experiments and poisons it's own citizens, it worships Death, money and has let it's Honour been taken and polluted. It destroys families even within it's own borders. It has forgotten it's Ancestors, Purpose and Honesty. The rest of the world has come to hate the USA Inc. Corporate Globalism under the banner of NWO has eroded Laws, Customs and Relations with the rest of the world ... reduced to Feudalistic Post Industrialism.
Individual Rights are being taken outright and criminalized by criminals. For me it became impossible to dwell within it's borders without supporting the Evil it is now afflicted with. I am no Angel but I do live by a Code ... the Code of Bushido. It is no religion made by man and claiming to be more. It is simple, practical and Ancient. It suits me and my instincts, beliefs and conclusions. I have chosen it and it's Path.
I do try to respect others beliefs Spiritually. This is a constant challenge and requires making choices at times ... difficult, dangerous and determined decisions. I have enjoyed immensely the Forum of Band Mix. I have made a few good friends, a few more good acquaintences and some most excellent sparring partners ... who could ask for more. The Last Phase of my Life is now beginning. It will be no retirement, this I have always known. When I was a small child I used to sing along to a song which was popular on the radio and my Mother would tell me to stop singing that song because otherwise you will manifest it in your Life. And it is not a joyful happy song so you should not sing it so. I told her that it would indeed be a part of my Life and that as such I would face it, live it and sing it joyfully. She would shake her head every time i sang it. Some of you may know it ...If I remember correctly it was entitled "The Hard Way" by Frankie Laine.
Well now it is manifesting and I am ready having long anticipated it. I have always believed that I would live a long and "active" life square in the centre of the fray and perhaps not the most popular to those I encounter. This seems to be coming true, not just through Band Mix but in other aspects as well. I know my Path and I know that it is Right and True ... and beyond that I really honestly know very little. I think that all of us here, at least the vast majority have much more in common than not. We all have rather massive Egos and to me this is not really a bad thing. We are afterall Creators, Artists, Musicians, Fathers, Husbands and Friends to some.
I wish to take this opportunity to state these things and make you all aware of why I left and have no desire to return. I have lived many more years outside of the country now than in it and have learned that home is where the Heart is ... Lena Lovich. I have to date had a most interesting Life and I know that it is nothing compared to what comes.
I am Rising, perhaps for the very Last Time ... but Rise I will and I shall roar like the Dragon I am and it shall be heard around the world before I am gone. I know my enemies but most do not know me so ... it is time I introduced myself. I intend for this "Last Rising" to be Epic. Not in any negative way but in accordance with the Path I have chosen and the Code I have struggled to Live Well by.
I wish you all the very best, no animosity and only degrees of love and respect. There is a Storm Coming and I intend to be in or near the centre of it ... riding it as it sweeps through the chaos. There are only two possible endings for me in all this and I only hope that I am brave enough to take the most Noble, Honourable and Right one. My days here are numbered as are all of us. Some may not care or know. Censorship is coming.
Watch for the opening skies and know then that The Abyss is exposed and make your choices quickly and surely for the time of choosing expires. I have prattled on enough. I apologize to those who may have felt annoyance. That was never my intention.
LIVE WELL DIE WELL
Ta Live Well Die Well... sunt enim ultima tempora.
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